I feel like I don’t know myself anymore.

Sometimes, I ask myself “what the hell am I doing?” There are things that I don’t normally do before that is becoming some kind of a routine now. I don’t know. Weirdness. I don’t cut school before even if I’m sick or I just don’t feel like it but now, I cut whenever I want. Before, I’m so used to studying all the time, grade-conscious as some of you may call it but lately, I’m just a free-loader. I don’t get it. Why am I like this. I have to WAKE UP! I mean WAKE UP NOW. *slaps myself*

Okay, now I’m awake. I know what I have to do. Why did I just realize everything towards the end of the semester? Oh well, God may have a purpose for that which is for me to find out. I have to be better. I’m not saying that I’m ill or something, I just have to be the old me. The old student that I was. Hayyy. I can do this. I have to help myself because if not, nothing’s gonna happen to my future.